I've undertaken a large and ridiculous task. I've decided to re-do Evan's first scrapbook, the one from birth to his first Christmas. I'm doing this for two reasons: one, the original book is falling apart, and two, the old book is 8 x 11 and all of his others are 12 x 12. I need consistency. I am crazy.
I just started to work on some pages tonight, and I am beginning to realize what a long time this is going to take me. But I also realized something else--Evan used to be so small. Sometimes I forget that, but when I was moving his hospital bracelet from one book to the next, I remembered. How that bracelet that fit around his leg now fits only around my thumb. How tiny he used to be, you could hold his entire body in one hand. He's grown so much, changed so much.
It made me long for another baby. I am developing amnesia about all the sleepless nights and spitting up and hospital stays. I want Evan to have a sibling, and I feel like if this doesn't happen soon for us it won't happen. But rational me doesn't want to return to newborn mode once Evan's out of diapers and in school--it just doesn't make sense.
A lot of things about the way I'm feeling just don't make sense.
Posted by jenny at February 5, 2005 12:09 AMDo you have to get photo reprints or are the ones from the old scrapbook salvagable?
Posted by: eden at February 6, 2005 05:10 PM
